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The last post was at 13th December, which is 10 days ago; the previous one was 5th, which is 3 weeks ago, am I being too busy or too lazy?

I have always been a lazy person. At first when I started to blog, I thought I would be determined enough to continue blogging for I don't know, 5, 15 years?
Now, I am closed to finishing my third year of study, which means marching into the fifth year of blogging, I seems to have another excuse for not blogging, that is busy of course.

University students are busy, busy with assignments, busy with test, busy with entertainments, busy with skipping classes, busy enjoying life. I have been through 3 years of university life with that kind of "temporary busy life", it is just temporary because it would repeat itself every semester, again and again.

I am not someone with strong initiative, in fact, I used to be someone who tries to avoid things(troubles?) as long as it's possible. I've grown, I've changed, throughout these years. Getting touch with the outside world makes me realise how naive I was, thinking that people can live as an individual, not as a part of this world. I've met some obstacles, been through some hard moments, teaching me lessons that I could never learn from books, I could never learn, if I close myself inside my room.

Things don't always go the way we like, in fact, they often don't. There's a saying "if you cannot change the environment, you change yourself". Human is a flexible animal, they change, to fit into the surroundings, that's the way they march forward.

University life shouldn't be just academic and entertainment, it should be something more, something that, could make life different, I realise this only at last semester. I don't know whether it's too late, at least I am making progresses, utilizing the last year of my precious university life. For that, I am glad.

A short six months, I've been through many things, many "first times", starting from the first introduction into the world of research; proceed to doing some real experiments; joining a research project(being selected to be exact); hectic life with lab experiments, assignments due, project preparation, tests; doing some practical DIY works; second oversea experience; floating in the air(yes, literally); continue with EVEN hectic life.

Of course there are complains, frustration moments happening throughout the journey, but the things that I earned, they are priceless.


之前，大概今年的四月吧，有说过那两个礼拜的时间应该是最忙的一段时间了。
过不久，大概八月，彻底地推翻了那个说法。
十二月，大概两个礼拜前，好事成双，二次推翻。

一次比一次忙，很欣慰，对待的心态却是一次比一次乐观。
大概是因为，自己也懂了，有些收获，是需要付出的。

既然自己选了这条路，没什么好抱怨的，就好好享受吧。
记得之前引用过的一句话“当坏事降临时不要问为什么是我，因为好事来临时你可没问过这个问题”，就算是收获，也是问心无愧的那种比较甜的吧。

回到马来西亚的这几天，要应付的是三张考试，研究报告，四天里面的事，前两个礼拜又因为忙着准备飘浮在空中而什么准备都没做到，我都觉得自己越来越神，可以在考试前不到24小时才开始读书，有些更是12小时前，但我不抱怨，虽然常常把“要疯了”挂在嘴边，星期二甚至压力到很害怕的阶段，
我不抱怨。

看看朋友们四天里面考四张考试的，他们没抱怨，我不抱怨，
看看朋友一天里面连考三张考试的，他没抱怨，我不抱怨。

我已经很幸运了，大学里面几十张的考试，考得好考得不好，也没有人知道你是在那么艰辛的期间度过的，也只是成绩单上的那几个数字。
反之，我在做着的报告，对履历表很有帮助，有可能是我人生中很重要的一个转折，一个天上掉下来的机会，我还不站好位置被它砸到吗？
所以，我不抱怨。

人家说有舍才有得，可不可以，就那么一次，让我贪心这一次，让我名利双收。


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